" I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have peace.

In this world you will have trouble.

But take heart!

I have overcome the world."

John 16:33

...so that in me you may have peace.

Hmm...

I have decided to have a good day- and a good night. Although this past week wasn't a walk in the park and this weekend will not reach my full hopes.

I think that I can manage to have a wonderful time all the same.

I like not knowing whats coming- to be able to handle whats just around the korner.

It takes a little more time- but I am pretty good at making a come back.

I am confident in where i stand and who i am... that has been frustrating to some people lately i think. Sorry these are just some thoughts running through my head today. Of course there are pleanty of things i would like to know that i dont

and may never know for that matter.

.. and there are times when im not sure of myself and instead im scared and hurting and have nothing to say.

But thats only sometimes... Balance my dear- this is my life lesson.

So i will be in Asheville tonight- give me a call if you want to meet up.

I will be talking at yall soon im sure.

Enjoy the cool air in your lungs.

Jenn~

So... do you have any brothers and sisters?

Its amazing when it all comes together... I wish i could be there to see your face-
All my love dear one!
Jenn~

I am trying to decide, is this the part where I take a deep breath?

Where I look ahead and move on

Is this the part where I put it all behind me

Right now it seems to be a step ahead of me

No matter where I turn there it is

Cold

Regret

sorrow

Remembrance

Wonder

Awe

Faith

Hope

Paine

LOVE

I mean its just there

The other day I went and sat by the lake

It was a perfect day for doing just that

I wanted it to come to me

The thing I have been waiting for, but it never did

So, I picked up my shoes and walked away

I feel like doing that a lot lately

Can't I just give up, and let it go

The answer is indeed no, as you may have guest

I want to so badly some times

That is when I let my heart go

You know imagine what it will be like

(that is if I follow my dream or my dream doesn't change)

To live so far away, and I know that this feeling will never leave

when I am there and I have reached my goal, I wonder,

I wonder if I will let my heart go and dream of home

I'm sure I will, yes I am sure

Never Ending

-jonlyn

summer love that lasts all year long.....

I am in desperate need of a visit with my dearest friend jessie.
It has been far too long. Today i went to Grace and played the piano- it took a good five minutes for my eyes to adjust to the darkness. It was an interesting time though before they did- If i kept my eyes closed then i could play much better- if i just accepted the darkness instead of trying to see what was white and black, and what was my hand. There is a lesson in this for me. And my voice is not so good from the tears- and i think i sounded awful but i sang loud... There is something about singing in that room- i feel like i have to fill up all the silence-
the piano does it well. My voice- it leaves much to be wanted.

So about this forever love... I watched that over the weekend. The canyon that is in her heart now. Its like trying to fill up the silence its not an option. it is not a goal to be reached.
Their love was strong. "i have never seen anyone more married!"
I want to find this love. You should have been there to hear what they said about him.
You should have seen the way her eyes would light up when she told stories of their lives together. It was a beautiful weekend. It has left me exhausted though. We got home at 4:30
this morning.... my dad drove all through the night.
Anyways... they had a lifetime of love- it was such an honor to witness that.

I should go- I feel like there is so much to tell you. I would love to do it in person-
Im going to rest. Or go catch the last bit of the sunset down my the river..
Either way im going now. I will talk to you all soon.
Jennifer~

We are going to GA to be with the our friend Linda- she just lost her husband in a car accident.
Please pray for her! We will be back some time on Monday...
Thanks guys for all your love and support!
We love you all-
Jenn and Jonnie~

Truth....

"The notes I handle no better than many pianist.
But the pauses between the notes--ah, that is where art resides."
-Atur Schnabel

I am learning this...
Jenn~

Shit!! (excuse me)
i lost my post.... Basically my night was wonderful. And i really like it when guys have scars on their faces. Im hopeless i think. i will be back soon- hope your happy tonight! Oh... and i got to talk to jessie!
Jenny~
(i havent been called that in awhile.. but tonight it made a come back)

Good combination....

Wow... have you ever said goodbye shut the door- and then wanted to run back and do it all over again? accept with a little more passion? well that was tonight. but i didn't go back- too much to consider.. Lovely!

After I got home I talked to Jessie- and we both rattled on for minutes at a time without taking a breath.
Lots to catch up on. I needed her expert advice of course. I wonder how different my life would be without her? how many wrong choices would i have made? how many more i should say.

movies are great to watch with a new friend... Especially- well nevermind.
I am happy tonight... And so is my aunt- She is getting her dream back. Im so ecxited for her! I know that most of you don't even know this story and im not going to tell it to you...
But tonight is a good night.

Hope yours is too-

Jenn~

That big black piano....

Wow-
I felt...
It was amazing!
And he was leaning over watching-
and she was singing harmony-
and i missed you-
feelings of deep hurt-
it was heavy but at the same time i felt like i was on top of the world.
Anything could happen-
and so much did...
minutes really-
smiles-
laughter-
catching a strangers eye-
and dancing-
and this one, he was happy-
and you want to know the weird thing? She knew.
your so funny-
slow down girl-
and she... she had diamonds on the soles of her shoes.
and this one, her red hair was stunning in the sunlight.
broken hearts are hard to swallow.
and big black piano's are hard to leave behind.

Jenn~

Yours....

I have watched one too many love movies lately.
I don't like the mood they put me in these days. Not happy- only wanting.
But i watch them.. often.

I realize how fast i get caught up in the moment. I do and say things that anyone in their right mind would never do or say. And i have sort of limited myself now- put a box around something that should have kept its neutral state... see- i have to be careful what i say now. sigh...
mmm... i have had some wonderful nights lately- Oh and i found out that there was a full moon on my graduation day. Jonlyn Jc and i had the most wonderful conversations last night. I think we were about as real as it gets.

I get to take care of an amazing baby tonight- this girl is bound to be glorious.

we spent the day surrounded by water falls today. And you would think that would leave a person quite clean... but i have to go get a shower and head to Asheville.
oh! I have an interview tomorrow for a nanny position and im nervous! So please pray for me at 3:30. I must go- please be well- all of you.
Jennifer Rhea Linville
(its a nice looking name dont ya think?)

Spinning and it's getting faster

Pressing you harder

and harder into the back of your seat

You've held your breath up untill now

Your not sure how long ago now is from when you got on

All you know is you have to let it out

SCREAM

Then your up for the second round.

You wonder if you didn't scream

Would you explode?

Not because it's logical

Besides no one who used logic would be on a ride like this.

Only because thats how you felt

I felt that same feeling today

I was on the parkway

Passing all the bikers

Who must have only been going

THREE miles per hour

That is when I thought

"I don't want to view the Park Way at 3 mph"

Nor do I want to see it at 40 mph

That is the speed all the old people drive

I did decide that I want to see it at 60 mph

Everything is just wonderful

When your going 60

Your just about to fly

Conquering all the twists and turns

But suddenly there it is

FEELING

I felt like I was going to fly

Yes it sounds wonderful

But if you only knew where I would be flying to

Putting it off for as long as I could

TAP

The car fell to a mere 55

Of course in no time it had resumed to a lovely 60

That is how my life has been

I wonder if it is that way for all of us

We suddenly realize

Oh yeah I need air to live

I need breaks to stay grounded

I need him...

Yes, I really do need him

I NEED

-Jonlyn

CAMPING

Happy day! Im going camping with family and friends for the weekend. I will see you all soon.
go out and enjoy the sunshine... have an amazing day dear ones.
Jenn~
Oh yes... jonlyn is at home for the weekend- so any of you who are not off at college be sure and check on her for me ok ? ok... bye

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

If I could write it out, then you would know.

Your heart would shutter

The thought would crush

But, I don't have the words

Atleast I don't have the courage to write them

If I did you'd see it all

The tears of glass

They shatter when they,

Well they shatter

So divided in this "union"

separated in paine

Suffering alone

From something you built

It's all torn apart

But, your fighting still

So, you go on defending

Your efforts never end

Keep your guard up

Cause if they got in

Well, we never know what would happen then

None the less

We wouldn't want to do that

The effort

It would all be trashed

TRASHED

BROKEN

INFECTED

DISEASED

DIVIDED

SHATTERED

CRUSHED

PAINED

WITHERED

UNLOVED

UNWANTED

FLAWED

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

-jonlyn-

In 3 days time...

"I'll dance the pants off of you"

"If i were 20 years younger..."

"Im your best friend! not him!"

"They just can't understand it."

"Happy birthday!"

"I love you so much!"

"He said... Becky, will you marry me?"

"I will see you soon!"

"I have missed you...I wanted to give you space though."

"Come back!"

"This action cannot be undone."

"ten thousand people..."

"there's a place in my heart called Joshua..."

"No! you look nice."

"It will be wonderful!"

"Spit."

"Dennys Dinner."

"I think this is it..."

Jenn~

Are you real?

Tonight i read Velveteen rabbit to two precious girls.
And I kissed them goodnight and went off thinking over the story.
Sigh....
Thats all i have- accept that i fall short a lot. and im fake a lot...
and the uncomfortable silence and painfully shallow conversation and even more uncomfortable goodbyes... those are a result of my being fake. I have much to learn... about self sacrifice-

Oh to be a real girl~

Jenn.

You're an ISTJ

ISTJ
You're systematic, thorough, painstaking, and hardworking...You get the job done and complete it on time...you are serious and sincere in whatever you do..you work well within a structure...follow the hierarchy...and are particularly strong and careful in keeping track of facts and details...

Cautious...generally seeking to maintain the status quo...you are at your best getting things to the right place at the right time....
Serious, responsible and sensible stalwarts of society...trustworthy and honor your commitments...your word is your solemn vow. Practical and realisitic, you have great powers of concentration....hard to distract once you have embarked what you believe is the best course of action.... ..

You like to apply past experience to present decisions...you can cite accurate evidence to support your views...you're down to earth and seek to do the right thing at the appropriate time...you find it hard to understand people who start an education but don't finish it...
You are diligent and persevering in your efforts...whether it be school, or work, or love...A half-finished job is not a job well done...you probably believe in "Say what you mean and mean what you say." Private by nature, you appear calm in moments of crisis...

You believe in work before pleasure...(gee, like posting before playing the online games on Storm Palace?)..while you don't SEEK leadership positions, you might find yourself in one...you build a reputation for reliable, stable and consistent performance...

You like to schedule....even your LEISURE time! It helps to you if it has a purpose, even if that purpose is sociability...to you, love means bigtime commitment, steadiness and consistency...you behave appropriately for what the situation demands (for example, romantic in the beginning, and so on)..

When you give your word and are ready to settle down, you follow-through... you expect your partners to act in a similar manner...you may stay in a poor relationship because of a sense of duty...you might have strong but unspoken reactions under that cool facade...

Logical and analytical...quick to point out flaws in other people...when you feel scorned in a relationship, you may not let your partner know it..when it's obvious that the relationship is really over, ending it is just the practical thing to do...

Things to look out for: you could immerse yourself in details...you could become rigid in your ways and be thought of as inflexible... don't forget to compliment people and be so concerned with getting the job done....you might overlook the long-range implications of your actions today...don't get stuck in a rut...recognize your emotions, and the values they represent... others might see you as insensitive...

Also, you're skeptical of new ideas you don't see immediate and practical applications for...you may impose judgments on others...expect others to be the way YOU'd be...become more tolerant of difference between people.

ISTJ: "I Save Things Judiciouslyl"